Personal Feelings

2011-12-04T14:59:00.000-08:00


Happier times....

I set up this blog just for this type of moment when I had nowhere else to turn but to my own mind. And keeping inside is too much to bear so "here I am".....

My personal feelings do not mean anything to anyone but myself. Therefore I choose to not post my life's problems across the universe in the form of "Facebook".....for the whole world to think I'm setting up some kind of Facebook soap-opera for people to be entertained by my daily shortcomings and problems whether they be health related or otherwise. Believe me, I have both.

In 2003 I found my way into the "Marijuana Movement". I met a lot of interesting people. Some educated and some self educated. All were very dedicated to what they believe. As am I.

Sometimes in this life you get hit by boulders. It seems they just drop right out of the sky onto your head. And then you look up, rub your head and say "WTF"....

Since I am from Kentucky and raised my children there and I smoked Marijuana for medical (as well as personal) reasons, I never hid the fact from my family and I backed up my use with facts and explanations which were very viable.

I raised my children according to the "Kentucky code" of OMERTA as well as George Carlin's "Children should be taught to question everything .... " In my mind just because something is illegal does make it immoral and just because it IS LEGAL does NOT make it moral!

After 30 years of marriage I divorced my husband in January of 2011. Not because he had done anything wrong, we just were not right for each other. He was not into the life that I was.

After knowing my "friend" in Peoria, IL since 2005 and having worked together I became very close to him as a friend as well as partner of sorts. When I left my ex-husband I went there. The rest up to now is history that is written all over facebook - if you look for it. However, it isn't on my profile.

I brought him down here to live with me in September of this year on the 5th to be exact. And by the 9th my daughter had called the police and told them we had a domestic dispute and reported that I had Marijuana on my property. The domestic dispute was her not wanting him here. The plants I really dont know where they came from because I never saw them until KSP and DTF carried them (4 plants) out of my "woods".

Needless to say it has been a harrowing experience and one that I would not wish on anyone.

What she did only made a bad situation worse. The family was at odds with each other anyway due to the trauma of a divorce on adult children and my grandchildren were involved also.

Now as it ends up, the people who are paying for it is ALL of us. Not the least of which is Rich who had to succumb to 4 weekends in jail in Barren County Kentucky to keep me from going to jail since it was found on my property. Yes, 4 weekends. And approximately $1000 in court costs and jail fee's which I will most definitely pay most of and I would pay all of it if I could.

The reason I am even writing all of this is because I have to clear my own conscience.

ALL of this mess is MY FAULT. It was me who left to go to Peoria. It was me who brought him down here knowing what the family was thinking and apparently capable of. I tried to explain to him this before we came back but he wanted to be with me and try to help me out. Well, now you can see where that got BOTH of us.

Now I am torn between my children my grandchildren and the man I admire but who does not understand me. My children all but despise me and the one who turned me in already does which means I no longer have contact with my grandchildren whom I help to raise for ten years straight.

Rich doesn't understand me as a Mother having love for her children no matter what.
Where does that leave us and our relationship??? At this rate, most likely gone to hell.

And now on top of all of this I fear I am becoming ill (again) myself.

In the end I was born alone and I am sure I will die that way as well. I am o.k. with that. I deserve it.

Coming of Age in the NWO

2011-03-14T21:19:00.000-07:00

Coming of Age in the NWO

I remember the day, 9/11/2001, when our lives changed forever.

I was awoken by a phone call from a friend at about 9:05 am.

Her voice was franctic as she screamed in the phone, "We are being

attacked!".... As I tried to wake up, she said "Just turn on the New's", "NOW!"

I scurried out of bed and held on to the walls to get to the Den where my

Mother was sitting in her rocking chair and as I looked at the TV I see

NYC and smoke billowing everywhere. Chaos was breaking out all around.

My Mom, Bless her Heart, was "watching a movie", or so she thought.

She had Alzheimer's and was not able to catch on to what was happening

just by viewing the TV. As I started to explain what I thought had happened,

here came the next plane....right into the Trade Center...again. At that point

I KNEW we were under attack.

Dazed and confused, a thought came to mind. My Father had

said right before his death in June of 2001, that "He didn't know what else to do,

except to just leave and watch everything go to Hell"...

Now I was beginning to see what He was talking about. I was glad He was not

here to see it, (or maybe he was).

He was a WWII Veteran. A Medic. He had been around the World

from 1941-1945, from the Philippines to Italy, Germany and beyond. He had definitely

seen his share of War and misery in his lifetime. A child of the Great Depression of

1929, he had lost his Mother at age 2, in 1919 to the Avian Flu. They lived in

Stephensport, KY a small town on the Ohio River.

~The first memory that really sticks to my mind of my Father was when I

was about 5 years old. He taught me how to "turn over a dead body".....

"Just cross the ankles and twist, and they will turn right over", he said.

We practiced this, playfully, on the living room floor.~

Then, my thoughts turned to what would happen in our immediate future.

O.K., I thought. I've got Mom, myself, my husband (who was at work and probably did

not know about what had just happened), my two daughter's, two grandson's and their father

who lived with us, and my Aunt who was my Father's sister who lived a block away.

What do I do first?

I picked up my cell phone and called my husband. I explained what I could at the time

and told him to "get his ass home!". He responded and was home in a short time.

Fortunately for us, there was some cash in the house and a checkbook with funds

available. By eleven o'clock that morning I was at "Sam's Club" purchasing a

generator, plenty of canned and dry food supplies, water and household needs.

I brought home over a thousand dollars worth of supplies and placed them in plastic

tubs and put them in the center of the basement in a closet. To this day, I still

have some supplies there.

By late that afternoon we were all perched in front of "FOX News" watching the

devastation that our Country had succumb to. This went on for days, weeks and even

month's.

A lot has happened in all of our lives since that fateful day in September of 2001.

I learned, as my Father had before me, to "read between the lines". Don't believe

anything you hear, and only half of what you actually see, and when a crisis happens,

analyze the situation, adapt to it and overcome the hardship.

The lessons learned from 9-11-01 have been magnificent to say the least.

The New World Order had begun to take hold.

The first thing I learned is to not trust the Government. No matter what they say or do

for us there will always be an underlying reason for their "compassion".

Whether it be the Patriot Act, which effectively overturned the Bill of Rights, the right to pain relief, which resulted in the death and/or addiction of many people to narcotics, including Oxycontin, the Cannabis/Hemp conspiracy, which controls how we can legally use (or not use) the Marijuana/Hemp plant for personal, health or religious purposes, the Health Care Bill which is now in the process of being initiated which will pre-determine what care each of us will or can receive, and the RFID (Radio Frequency Identification Device) which was originally designed by the IBM Corporation for use in Hitler's regime during WWII and HAARP which has yet to be discovered by the common people just what it may be capable of doing to us or on our planet Earth.

These are just a few of the high profile NWO discoveries. The NWO continues to and will continue to encompass much, much more than "we the people" will be advised of prior to the

execution of their plans.

THE TIME IS NOW! To begin the fight for our God given right to survive on this planet.

For if we wait another year, It will be to late.

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Sheree Krider . . . 'et al'

Personal Feelings

Coming of Age in the NWO